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Now Playing: Todd Agnew - "Still Here Waiting"

It’s cold outside
Or is that just the chill I feel inside from standing here
Steeping in my shame
I can’t deny
I’m surrounded by the very thing You freed me from
That’s why I can’t come home

I don’t know where I turned around
From chasing what I always found completed me
More than I could dream
I don’t know why I can’t remain
Safe here where I always come to meet with you
And You always met with me
And You’re still here waiting

I fail to see
Why You’d still be waiting to forgive me
After all that I have done
But I cannot say
That one time I returned and You had turned away
Your love never fails

I don’t know where I turned around
From chasing what I always found completed me
More than I could dream
I don’t know why I can’t remain
Safe here where I always come to meet with you
And You always met with me
And You’re still here waiting

You say, "Come home" and You’ll be there
I can run into your arms

I don’t know where I turned around
From chasing what I always found completed me
More than I could dream
I don’t know why I can’t remain
Safe here where I always come to meet with you
And You always met with me
And You’re still here waiting


This song is breaking me.

Why do I choose to turn around and walk away from the one thing that completes me, the one thing that gives me true, abiding, rich joy? Instead I choose the things that give me a few minutes of pleasure, but in the end leave me steeping in my shame. He's still standing there, waiting, His arms wide open...but I have such a hard time turning back to Him. It's so much easier to just hold onto these pleasures...even if they tear me up.