-Keep me Off-

I've been riding a roller coaster of misery for the past five years of my life.

I hate roller coasters. I throw up. I get horrible headaches. I cry. I'm miserable. The ups and downs and twists and turns ruin any ounce of joy I may have been feeling before climbing on the ride. The smart thing for me to do is to stay off the roller coaster completely. But say I get on it...when the car comes to the station at the end of the ride, I'm not going to say "that was terrible!! let's do it again!!", am I? No, I'm going to jump out of that car as fast as I can!

Why don't do I do that with my life? I hate a lot of the way my life looks. I want to throw up when I look at it. It gives me a headache. I cry. I'm miserable. The ups and downs and twists and turns ruin any ounce of joy that I have. And yet I stay on the ride. I get to the station feeling miserable, and I have every opportunity to jump off that roller coaster, and yet I stay on for another ride. I get even more miserable. I come to the station. I say "let's go again!". The ride is worse every time. I get to the station feeling worse and worse every time. Through every ride I say "this is the time I'll get off!". I get to the station and I stay in the car. Every once in a while I'll jump out of the car...but I'll get right back in before the ride starts. I can't stay away. The Station Master watches with sad eyes as He sees my misery deepen. He asks me on every trip around if I'm ready to get off yet, and I just shake my head. No, Station Master, let me go again. He lets me.

I'm back at the station and I'm getting off the ride.

This time it's going to be different. I'm begging the Station Master to not let me get back on. Whatever it takes, Station Master, restrain me. Keep me off. No matter how much I scream and cry and kick and fight to get back on, keep me off. I know it's going to hurt and it's going to be uncomfortable, Station Master, but it's what I need. I'm tired of feeling sick and miserable. I'm tired of crying. So keep me off.